mr wha wha.

only one

2005-02-25T13:37:00.000-08:00

broken this fragil thing now
and i cant i cant pick up the pisces
and i thrown my words all around
but i cant i cant give you a reason
i feel so broken up (so broken up)
and i give up (i give up)
i just want to tell you so you know
here i go
scream my lungs out
and try to get to you
you are my only one
i let go but there just no one
that get me like you do
you are my only my only one
made my mistakes lead you down
and i cant i cant hold on for to long
ran my whole life in the ground
and i cant i cant get up when ur gone
and somethings breaking up (breaking out)
i feel like giving up (like giving up)
i wont walk out till u know
here i go
scream my lungs out
and try to get to you
you are my only one
i let go but theres just no one
that gets me like you do
you are my only my only one
here i go so dishonestly
leave a note for you my only one
and i know u can see right though me
so let me go and you will find someone
here i go scream my lungs out
and try to get to you
you are my only one
i let go but theres just no one no one like you
are you my only my only one
my only one
my only one
my only one
you are my only my only one

frndds gathering!

2005-02-14T12:22:00.000-08:00

OMG.i missed those frndds whom i had not seen them since sch ended for us.missed the fun we had in sch.I MISS SCH AND MY FRNDDS! now some of them are working and some are studying in JCs.glad to see that they are doing great.yesterday we had steamboat at qinglong hse.it was so great.10++ of us sitting at a table and had dinner together.hope we can get together more often, hang out lyk how we used to.yongxi,christian,christopher hong,nigel,qinglong,shinfatt,shuhui,krystle,zilun,zhichen and mi.after dinner we went to zilun and everyone gambled together.had much fun!won a few bucks!lols!zhichen cooked supper for everyone!MAGGIE MEE.at bout 4-5 am mi zhichen,shinfatt and shuhui took cab home.i reali hope everyone of us from this group can gather and go out more often!never forget each other.cya guys on 19th zhichen bdae! HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! sending my blessing to everyone!

2005-02-10T23:57:00.001-08:00

YO!!! it haf been decades since i haf update my blog..on the first day of new year i met shuhui and we went PS to eat mac student meal!.and we walked around in town.for the first time town was so bloody silent.all shops was close.we went shaw house and watch Constantine at 9.45pm.it was a great show and everyday the tickets were all sold out.lucky we got 3 tickets but we waited for 2hr be4 the show start.Mr john constantine!he is super cool,killing demons but letting cigarettes kill him!!super heavy smoker!gonna be lyk him!gonna end here le.cya again!

My only wish

2004-12-09T22:36:00.000-08:00

Last night I took a walk in the snow
Couples holding hands, places to go
Seems like everyone but me is in love
Santa can you hear me ?
I signed my letter that's sealed with a kiss I sent it off,
and just said this I know exactly what I want this year
Santa can you hear me
I want my baby, baby
I want someone to love me
And someone to hold Maybe,
maybe (maybe, maybe) I'll be on my own
and I'll be thankful

Santa can you hear me? I have been so good this year
And all I want is one thing
Tell me my true love is here
He's all I want, just for me
Underneath my Christmas tree
I'll be waiting here Santa
that's my only wish this year Christmas Eve,

I just can't sleep
Would I be wrong, for taking a peek?
'Cause I heard that you're comin' to town
Santa can you hear me
I really hope that you're on your way With something special for me in your sleigh

Oh please make my wish come true Santa can you hear me

I want my baby, baby I want someone to love me And someone to hold

Maybe, maybe (maybe, maybe) We'll be all alone under the mistletoe

I want my baby, baby I want someone to love me And someone to hold

Maybe, maybe (maybe, maybe) I'll be on my own and I'll be thankful

I'll be waiting here Santa that's my only wish this year
I hope my letter reaches you in time

Bring me a love, I can call all mine
'Cause I have been so good this year
Happy alone, under the mistletoe
He's all I want and I'll be thankful

Santa that's my only wish this year

Angel brought me here

2004-12-09T22:24:00.001-08:00

It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
Walking back into the light
To the sunset of your glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes

My dreams came true
When I found you
I found you, my miracle

If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you can feel
The tenderness I feel
You would knowIt would be clear
That angels brought me here

Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name

My dreams came true
Right here in front of you
My miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would knowIt would be clear
That angels brought me here

Brought me here to be with you
I'd be forever grateful (oh forever grateful)

My dreams came true
When I found youMy miracle

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would knowIt would be clear
That angels brought me here

If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers
If you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would knowIt would be clear
That angels brought me here

2004-12-09T22:24:00.000-08:00

2004-12-06T11:39:00.000-08:00

wow.damn freaking long nv update le.got alot of stiff but late to update.gurl today went to malaysia for holiday le.hope she enjoy herself.i quarrelled wif my family again,tis izzit the fast time and it is quite big.dunno if i haf to move out,haf enuff from tis fooking hse!i rather be a orphan and be wif my frend but they need their families too.frend cant be wif mi forever too.haix.tml going sentosa,wanna go there to relax and cool down but i will nv say sorry to him if i can i will definately move out.christmas is coming soon,guys haf u buy anytink for GF?time reali flies.secondary life ended,i dun lyk school but i enjoyed the time i haf wif all of my best fren!i missed the feeling!i need all of u guys!everyone haf a job buy i dun even haf one,seriously i am v lazy to get a job.and i need $$$$.haix.gurl come back soon!!ppl missing u!

2004-11-12T01:40:00.000-08:00

quite sometime nv blog le.gd and bad stuffs happen,i need to trust her more and dun doubt her.but sometimes she treat mi too coldly till i cant stop making wild guesses.went to angmokio to dye hair.ffatt's aunty.reached at 5om but they are closing at 6pm.zzz.bleach my hair and i look lyk a ah beng.cant stand the bright colour,it make mi feel i am more lyk a golden retriever.guess my hair is spoilt,as my hair turned out to be v dry.hate tat feeling!!yUCKsS!!!gonna use conditional to help,hoping it will not be so dry anymore.going to slping land le.hope to meet my slping beauti!!gurl ppl missing u sia.nitex!muacks!!

2004-11-08T18:27:00.000-08:00

tml paper is chemistry.after tat going town to meet her,hope to haf a gd time sia.two weeks nv c her le.missed her till i going siao le!after tml paper onli left two more paper le.18 nov and 22 nov.after tat i will be freed.gonna dye my hair till i cant c any black,reali can wait for the day to come sia.hope 22 nov come soon!

2004-11-03T22:05:00.000-08:00

i am sick and tired of the bloody exam.hope it end asap.I reali cant stand it anymore! HELP!!

2004-11-02T20:47:00.000-08:00

ran home as i tot u were online.reached home at 7.30 but u offline at 7.00pm le.bought a ring for my mouth,seemed strange sia.then i went to town wif fatt and weijie,as weijie wanna repair his hp,so we went to suntec.we took shutter bus from city hall to suntec and same for returning.i brought some books hoping to study but i did not touched them.then we headed to far east,saw a billabong cap!green and purple!!i lovee it alott!!and i saw a billabong bag,wanna buy for u as christmas present!!i am so in lovee with the bag and capp!!dun haf so much $$.nvm. i will get them asap de!wanna steal the cap de,but i consider again, went back to 77th street.the caps were gone,guess they keep them le,cos those cap had no sensor!haix!i wan them alot!!!!i reali got alot of tink which i wanna buy,and i need $$!! anyone haf a gun to borrow? i reali need to rob a bank! then went long john to makan wif weijie.then we walked all the way to dhoby ghuat!!my leg are damn sour man.met those gurls then go home le.did not see the gurl,not reali interested in them,cos my heart is occupied.then enter mrt, but damn SUAY, my hand was stuck in the door then i pulled,but weijie was still outside.then we got to alight and wait for him at little india.lolss.I reali dunno how to study for physic and eng.sianz!!die le lahz.if i failed my o's,its onli myself to blame.

2004-11-02T13:57:00.000-08:00

going to town now! study and walk walk! wanna join call mi!!

2004-11-01T00:04:00.000-08:00

you will always be my gurl, you are never useless.I found tat our love is really getting stronger, although we quarrelled sometime.You are my everything.thanks gurl for praying for me and worrying for me.I will try my best to do well de.Seriously today no one cheered me up, it was you gurl.I was so happy that you gave in and never showed me attitude.I love that! lolss.Going to study something be4 i get to bed!!Gurl, thanks for everything you gave me! you really are not useless, i swear, and you are always my gurl!mUacks! I Love You Gurl.To my only *NicoLe*.

Off to study! Burning midnight oil! May god bless me..

2004-10-31T04:44:00.000-08:00

i cant slp!! damn awake! 4.44am now! i wanna send u to sch!

"Welcome To My Life"

2004-10-30T13:08:00.000-07:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's likeTo be hurt

To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like, what it's like To be hurt
To feel lostTo be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
With no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

2004-10-29T21:03:00.000-07:00

I am back from hougang green le! learnt some add maths from the pro and we ate dinner suddenly zhichen came to study too.i was alone at green studying suddenly ppl come join mi. after eating we went to play pool. shuhui,zhichen,mingsong and qingyun. after a game i went home le. 9.00 pm now! the swimming show start le! update again!!

2004-10-29T15:17:00.000-07:00

jux tok to her on the fone sia.felt better le.still haf not tok to my parents after the quarrel yesterday, not planning to tok to them.after my exam tink i will find a place outside and move out.thz gurl! you are always caring for mi but i dunno onli.your result is so great lohz.hope i can haf half of ur brain cells!hope u gonna meet mi on sun after ur walk sia, guess i will go dome cafe to study de! study and study! i gonna go out to green now soon le! to study ALONE. but one of my gd frndd will join me to teach mi add maths! dun forget to go or i will hack u into pieces. lols!!hope my head and eyes dun wonder around! guess if u online i at green le. gurl mux sms mi lehz! off to bathe then go green study le!

2004-10-28T17:02:00.000-07:00

quarreled for nthing! i dun wish tat to happen! haix!

2004-10-28T15:01:00.000-07:00

my heart was broken again, i can notice from her sms yesterday.something isn't rigth.asked her in the bus and got dao by her.saw the way she smsed the guy hu lyk her, the smile on the face.it can never be compared to the face she gave mi. i was damn disappointed, if i knew the reason u dao mi, even if i do wrong i understand. u never ever tell mi wats going on and why u dao mi. the words came out from ur mouth was "i happy". sometime i noe i am getting irritating and fan.mayb i should even stop bothering you.if i am able to smoke again, i guess my feelings had fade somehow.guess my guesses were right.i dunno if u had fall for others guy, but noeing so mani guys lyk u, somehow i will worried. but u nv seemed to care for mi.i dunno if we are over,and i wonder when can we meet.i will jux let it be.my heart had a deep cut left by you.is my wish reali tat much?jux hoping u to treat mi better, but u nv seem to understand. i am completely broken down, mood mood for everytink.if i am so irritating to you, i should not bother you anymore. NEVER. since u dun need mi, no matter how i give in, it will be the same. my heart is torn into pieces!

2004-10-26T22:37:00.000-07:00

how u lyk the prezzie!!

.nv to lose u.

2004-10-24T23:17:00.000-07:00

wasn't very happy in the morning, she was out in town wif her frenx, watched movie and walking in town. i reali hope i watched the movie wif u, wanna watch wif u but i nv haf the chance. guess u jux dun lyk to see mi ba. headed to town wif fatt,went to cine for lunch and headed for far east, saw her outside far east but jux continued walking. we were smsing and hafing small conflict, was angry and sad. after that met her at cp and send her home, in the bus we were as normal again le. no matter how angry am i, once i get to see her, i will nv lose my anger and no matter whos wrong it is i will jux give in. mayb i am jux too deep into u le, nv ever treat u for granted and i treasured u! recently reali smoke alot alot. got 2 halls from her and i guess she cared for mi, so i tink i will try to kick tis bad habit, as i promise my gurl.BOi reali wanna go out wif u be4 my exam, and i guess u will not go out wif mi next week de. jux a outing be4 my exam? today i reali hope to watch movie wif u but u ended up watching wif frenx lohz. 7 more days to o level? hope i can jux pass and go poly, simple and go as smoothly wif nic.

Predictable

2004-10-24T23:16:00.000-07:00

Something isn't right
I can feel it again feel it again
This isn't the first time
That you left me waiting
Sad excuses and false hopes high
I saw this coming still I don't know
I let you in
I knew it all along
You're so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)
So take your empty words your broken promises
And all the time you stole cause
I am done with this
I can give it away give it away
I'm doin everything I should've
And now I'm makin a change
I'm living the day
I'm giving back what you gave me
I don't need anything
I knew it all along
You're so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)
Everywhere I go
Everyone I meet
Every time I try to fall in love
They all want to know why I'm so broken
Why am I so cold
Why I'm so hard inside.
Why am I scared
What am I afraid of
I don't even know
This story's never had an end
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been hoping
I've been dreaming you would come back
But I know the ending of this story
You're never coming back
Never..never..never..never.....[echo].....
I knew it all along
You're so predictable
I knew something would go wrong (something's always wrong)
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
So predictable (so predictable)
Everywhere I go for the rest of my life (so predictable)
Everyone that I love
Everyone I care about
They're all gonna wanna know what's wrong with me (so predictable)
And I know what it is
I'm ending this right now..

2004-10-23T00:30:00.000-07:00

jux walked home in the heavy rain, felt better as my mind is full of troubles and stress! feeling damn cold and lonely! hoping u were there, wanting to hug u tightly and cry out loud!! jux vomitted and found alot of black particles in there, hope my heart is not turning black.i reali dun understand y u dun lyk to go out wif mi, movie or even for a simple lunch. u rather go out wif other frndd. haix! boi is feeling sad! feeling left out! i reali need u alot! alot and alot! hope u meet mi on sun after outing wif ur frndd. missed u lyk dunno wat lohz!

i love nicole lim jiawen alot alot! i am willing to do everytink for u gurl! hope we can survive to hardship and last long long.. all i wan is for u to treat mi better and more important. wo ai ni!!

sometink happen between fatt and zelia.hope they are fine! fatt! we all are damn worried bout u! we cared! alot of tinks haf been happening recently and o lvl is damn near le. i haf not studied! haix! got to pray hard! i wan to pass and go tp, to join my god sis studying there! thx gd frnndd! offline le then online again! thx alot!

sOrry

2004-10-21T23:49:00.000-07:00

went to green and reduce stress, o lvl left 9 days? i haf not started revision man! help mi!!!! had some conflict wif her but ok le!! =)) who ever wrong is will jux give in de, even when it is ur wrong or my fault! i will give mi. hu ask mi to choose u! got to give u all my heart and trust. everytink, u are everytink.. lub guRl gUrl!! mUaCkS!

bTw! piglet u dun slp so much lahz. then midnight then slp ten morn cant wake up! no 21 rules!! =))

i love u!!

2004-10-20T20:23:00.000-07:00

hope we go on as great as we can! i love u !

gOing cRazy and i LuvYa aLot!!

2004-10-15T00:08:00.000-07:00

erm. long time since i blog. did not turn uup for sch tis whole week, stay at home to rot. everyday send her home after sch, held her tiny hand, love the feeling. but i am so afraid to lose her! very very afraid! had been tinking alot tis few weeks, had been doing toopid stuffs again. tis few days had been going to green, hoping to stay but ended up pooling and playing billiard. got some prob yesterday, lucky i got some gd fren, helped mi.

FINALLY
she start to update her blog le, and the toopid unknown keep disturb! there is onli two gurl who i tink will do tis stuffs. one is totally a slut to mi, but one is a fren, hope it is not u. no matter hu is that and if i get to noe, i will make sure u learn ur lesson. i hate ppl bully her de. no one is to lay a finger on her.

Her exam finally finish le, haf been waiting and waiting for tis day to come, i can go out wif her le!! and sometink which is very very important. i am wondering if she will accept mil lohz. dun dare to put to much hope on it. nvm. losing confident! i reali need help!!

tml she going for some show wif her dance member, how i wish i can go too! spend some time wif her. but her teacher will be there lohz. too bad sia. tink gonna eat lunch wif her! thats so great, planning when to go gaigai wif her sia. going out to jalan kyau at 4 am. few more hours to go, go eat super early breakfast. tml is ba song bdae, going out to eat seafood , drink and help him celebrate!! gonna go take a rest le!

GUrL!! i realil treasure u alot!! dun wanna lose u. afraid of losing u!! lyk ya lot! muACkS! hUgGieS. mIssEs You and tat! nitex! tinking too much everyday.. i need ur confidents and everytink of urs!

ups and downs

2004-10-09T22:21:00.000-07:00

celebrate marc bdae in town yesterday. had gd meal too. it was quite sometime i had eaten lyk yesterday. ermm,i reali dunno why sometime we can be lyk so happy can sudden u can be treat mi as cold, and even v sianz sometime. it break my heart when u treat mi lyk that , sometime i reali feel lyk breaking down and cry. reali enjoyed the past few days we had happily. we are lyk sitting in a rollar coaster ride - sometime we are up but sometimes down. haf been missing u quite alot, getting more and more, tinking of the holidays and after tis year i am leaving sch le. that make mi worry to lose u. i luvya as much as i 1st noe u! miss the days when i jux got to noe u. was so glad to noe u! mUackS!!! wiShing u will be minE!

2004-10-04T23:57:00.000-07:00

it is since a long time i smoke and drink le.. jux drank some beer and i am going to bed soon le.. haf been troubled by relationship and studies.. i reali need motivation and her heart.. i need to score well and haf u... nitex!

2004-10-02T01:10:00.000-07:00

yox... bathe and got home le... went out wif the sec 2 guys and wif zhichen..we went to play pool then we go eat supper...after pool we went to ps planning to watch movie... they very funni de.. we keep trying to sneak in to the cinema to watch free movie... that the 1st time i even tried and even tink to sneak in... lol.. we manage to get in and we got in the 1st room but dunno wat show was that and we went to the 2nd one... it was resident evil!! but the place was full, but suddenly a guy came and demand for our ticket... there was total silent, he ask more than 15 times for ticket and he finally say "i am sorry"... then we got out... wahahahas!! then we headed for for supper, had sea food.. yummy!!! and got home taking cab wif stan.. thanks sia.. had a great day.. =]...

haf not being smsing her or meeting her for 2 days... haix... hope u forgive mi le.. i am sorry!

2004-09-30T16:26:00.000-07:00

nv go sch today... yesterday lost soccer and i dun wish to c her black face, better not go... return to slp after receiving a sms which is send wrongly... after i woke up i smsed her, she is still angry wif mi... went to meet her jux now at the bus stop after punggol park... she was lyk still giving mi face... the onli words she said was " can i haf my books back?" and "dun touch mi"... and i went off fulled off anger... trying to plead her, making her happy, chat wif her... she gave mi face in returned and i walked off, i reali cant stand it... when i reach home, i saw a safety pin and started to curve +cow+ and nic on my hand... reali hurt!!... hopefully i dun get catch my teachers... u reali mean alot to mi de, but u treated mi tis way... i tried hard to give in but u dun appreciate... i dunno y there is so much anger in u and onli showing them to mi.. nvm... i am sorry! sorry gurl.... dunno if u are still wawa de gurl but all i can say is sorry.. u said u dun wanna sms mi and see mi, i will do that de, help u to avoid mi, make myself scarce... i am sure a idiot! haix...

hell

2004-09-30T01:03:00.000-07:00

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2004-09-30T01:02:00.000-07:00

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2004-09-30T01:01:00.000-07:00

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i curved my hands for her

2004-09-29T01:05:00.000-07:00

jux ate and reach home not very long... went to zelia hse there play candle, never play but got bullied onli... zelia keep throwing candles at mi and the wax drip on my hand... -.- wow, she got a new hp sia, 7610 envy her alot, got new tinks she lyk de.. so gd! fatt and zhichen was there too, as they went gym wif her be4 that... sat in her mom car 2 time today, 1st was she fetch mi home and 2nd oso... so gd sia... got a call from u and i was lyk so surprize and over the moon... i went to find them as i wanted to look at the moon and the beautiful star, hoping u will be there but that is so impossible lohz... *sOBx* missed u alot.. didn;t c utoday as i didn't go sch... heard sometink bad from my fren, hopefully it was not u but i then knew u smsed him so much... i was v disappointed u noe? haix... dunno y sia... dunno y i am not tired as i woke up at 1pm plus, cant slp now... sianz... remembered sometink, if u chat wif someone hu lyk u, i will get jealous de.. imaging i keep chatting wif someone hu lyk him... but i nv forget tis.. *it is trust + faith that keep us going...* nitex ppl... cya guyys tml.. happy lantern festival...

2004-09-27T22:21:00.000-07:00

it wasn't a bad day today.. a maths exam ended at 10 am and went to canteen to eat.. 10.45 i saw her walking in to the canteen.. was happy to see her, as i 2-3 days nv see her le.. on the bus to sch was quite fine, we tok and played abit... after her recess i went compass to find yong they all, pei yong home as i can take 74 back to punggol park to wait for her... chase yong till i noe where he stayed then i went to take bus le.. as i got nthing to do, i reach punggol park to wait for her, reached at 11.58am.. waited till 3.03pm... was damn tired and bones aching le... on the way accompany her home was very short but we had fun... she smiled alot today... so swt!! she told mi a funni "secret" sia... i wan more of that lehz... can? tell mi more "secrets"... lol... u are my cute gurl.. btw, sorry for causing ur fone bill to explode... haix... cant sms u sia.. sianz... nitex! swt dreams! mUacKs +cOws+ ...

2004-09-27T01:39:00.000-07:00

yawn... it is 1.39 am le... gonna go slp le... had a great chat wif stan.. he is a gd guy and fren.. miss U alot lehz... tml mon le... finally can c u le... muaCks!! swt dreams ppl! nitEx!

2004-09-26T03:03:00.000-07:00

haix... jux reach home... it is 3.05 am now... could not slp... went to work today and i was lyk afraid i do sometink wrong cos i haf not been working since last year... luckily i did not... today wasn't a gd day for mi... i did sometink wrong again... haix... i am reali sorry...i hope we are lyk back again lohz..before i go out of mine hse for work had a big quarrel wif her and someone... i am kicking a big fuse for nthing again... help!! i reali need help... alot alot alot... nvm.. i onli ate breakfast and i went for work... was lyk hungry till 12++ then i went to plaza to eat... after that was bout to go home and i saw kelvins... both kelvin... we went up the plaza to play billiard... mi and fatt won two games and we went home... i can go plaza without any trouble le... i am 16 le.. step out of the billiard room they started smoking... as mine gastric got problem le then mine food all came out... i jux ate mixed rice lohz... all came out... gastric not working well le, dying soon? hope i am... the last time for mi to do is to hug u tightly and nv let u go... +coWs+ wawa reali lyk u lyk dunno wat... remember "trust + faith keep us going"... i will nv forget it!! luVya lotS!!! nitex!! muAcks!!! 3.14 now... going bathe then go slp le... swt dreamz!! sorry... nearly regretted.... zZZZZzzzZZ

2004-09-22T07:35:00.000-07:00

jux woke up and i went to bathe...haix... quite so day nv update le... quite busy this few days.. it was new day today, went to meet her as normal.. on the trip we did tok and smile.. dunno y reach sch le her face turned black.. can anyone tell mi wat i did? sms her she dun care, watched her played game during her pe and atfer that was her recess.. she was enjoying herself so much till she nv c mi, looked at her during her recess, i even wait and watch till she got in class then i go.. exam start le, was moody and worrying... so i began to slp, dream of her.. exam ended at 11 40 then i rushed to c mine fone.. can c she starting to dao and show mi att... i dunno wat to do, kept calling and sms her... she dun bother! haix!! was waiting for the 62 which is full of ppl to pass mi under the stupid hot sun, i went to punggol plaza to find my fren to eat le... she dun wan mi to send her home... for dunno wat reason and showing mi attitude.. help! i ran around the whole sch to find her and she dun care bout mi de, treat lyk i am so transparent.. i am not lohz... u made mi feel so sad and worried sia... but she is so happy wif her fren... forget it.. dun dare and dun wan to sms her... hoping she will sms mi sia.. she tml got chinese test lehz!! all the best.. waiting for ur sms! haix!

2004-09-19T23:31:00.000-07:00

jux got home... went out to celebrate wif some of mine fren.. marcus, weijie, shinfatt, and chen.. then we went to walk walk... chen and fatt come lata... we wanna go marche eat de... go in c the price!! wah... so "cheap"... then nv le... marcus called mi at 5+ and ask mi out... wat a gd fren he is... 1st present and onli present for now is his de lohz... he gave mi two t-shirt... wah!! i love them... v nice!!! love them v much... thx marcus... wat a gd fren he is... from now on i can go hougang plaza le.. i am 16 le!! my bdae is ending soon le.. had a great time today lohz... even thought we ate burger king... but we had a great time... we oso bet on soccer... hoping we will win... hahas... gottto go bathe and slp le... THX ppl !! nitex!! had a great bdae!! muaCks!!

2004-09-19T10:33:00.000-07:00

finally i am 16 le... sianz lohz... no ppl celebrate wif mi... haix... onli can stay at home to rot... onli a few peeps remember mine bdae... thx! mine bdae is jux lyk a normal day... nvm! sianz!! can some kind soul pei mi not!!! dunno lahz... all ppl cannot de.. nvm.. update again... wat a sian bdae... =[..

2004-09-19T08:31:00.000-07:00

2004-09-17T18:30:00.000-07:00

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tis is a nice web!! romantic sia... [sad]

came home from sch le.. went cp wif her... we had a great time... 1st i went to pierce my ear... i got 7 holes le.. dunno spend how much on them le... holes and studs... after that we went library walk a while then we went jack places to eat... it was lyk celebrating wif her lohz... eat abit onli v full le... after that we go buy some stuffs and we boarded bus and i sent her home... hoping to hug her as it was lyk the last time i could hug her... miss the feeling so much... somemore her hands got rashes... c le i oso heart ache... ask ur mama bring u c doc lehz!! hope u pass all to mi, i wish u could and u get well but i get it!!! dun wan u to suffer... oh ya... remembered i got cl prelim exam... sian... i tink fail le... alot of questions i nv do lohz... studies jux sux lahz...

2004-09-15T16:00:00.000-07:00

yo... few days nv update le... sianz... prelim comingle.. starting fro tml... dunno wat to write.. i got lots and lots of stuffs to write... sun bdae coming... wanna spend my day wif her but she cannot go out... haiz... so sad lohz... dunno wat to do sia.. update at nite?? need a nap le... yawn!! nitex!

2004-09-15T15:59:00.000-07:00

He met her at a party. She was so outstanding,many guys chasing after her, while he was sonormal, nobody paid attention to him.
At the end of the party, he invited her to havecoffee with him, she was surprised but due tobeing polite, she promised.They sat in a nice coffee shop, he was too nervousto say anything, she felt uncomfortable, shethought to herself, "Please, let me go home.."
Suddenly he asked the waiter, "Would you pleasegive me some salt? I'd like to put it in my coffee."
Everybody stared at him, so strange! His faceturned red but still, he put the salt in hiscoffee and drank it.
She asked him curiously, "Why you have this hobby?"
He replied, "When I was a little boy, I lived nearthe sea, I liked playing in the sea, I could feelthe taste of the sea , just like the taste of thesalty coffee. Now every time I have the saltycoffee, I always think of my childhood, think ofmy hometown, I miss my hometown so much, I miss myparents who are still living there."
While saying that tears filled his eyes. She wasdeeply touched. That's his true feeling, from thebottom of his heart. A man who can tell out hishomesickness, he must be a man who loves home,cares about home, has responsibility of home..Then she also started to speak, spoke about herfaraway hometown, her childhood, her family.
That was a really nice talk, also a beautifulbeginning of their story. They continued to date.She found that actually he was a man who meets allher demands; he had tolerance, was kind hearted,warm, careful. He was such a good person but shealmost missed him! Thanks to his salty coffee!
Then the story was just like every beautiful lovestory, the princess married to the prince, thenthey were living the happy life... And, every timeshe made coffee for him, she put some salt in thecoffee, as she knew that's the way he liked it.
After 40 years, he passed away, left her a letterwhich said, "My dearest, please forgive me,forgive my whole life's lie. This was the only lieI said to you---the salty coffee.
Remember the first time we dated? I was so nervousat that time, actually I wanted some sugar, but Isaid salt. It was hard for me to change so I justwent ahead. I never thought that could be thestart of our communication!
I tried to tell you the truth many times in mylife, but I was too afraid to do that, as I havepromised not to lie to you for anything.. Now I'mdying, I afraid of nothing so I tell you thetruth, I don't like the salty coffee, what astrange bad taste.. But I have had the saltycoffee for my whole life!
Since I knew you, I never feel sorry for anythingI do for you. Having you with me is my biggesthappiness for my whole life. If I can live for thesecond time, still want to know you and have youfor my whole life, even though I have to drink thesalty coffee again."
Her tears made the letter totally wet.Someday, someone asked her, "What's the taste ofsalty coffee?"
She replied, "It's sweet."
Pass this 2 everyone coz love is not 2 forget but2 forgive, not 2 see but understand, not 2 hearbut 2 listen, not 2 let go but HOLD ON !!!!
Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss andends with a tear.

-= True love hears what is not spoken &understands what is not explained, for lovedoesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but inthe heart...

2004-09-12T13:24:00.000-07:00

yaWn wake up le... woke up a few time to see the time aand whether theres any sms... nv so i went back to slp.. i tot her church end at 12pm so i continue slping.. she end at 10 30am lohz.. stupid mi... damn sianz... all i do is slp and slp lyk a dead log.. no one at home now, and jux ate my breakfast... after the quarrel wif my dad last few weeks, i haf not been toking to him till yesterday.. tell him that i needed a new cd drive as sometink happened to my.. tink he go buy le ba?? =/ nvm... now my com is lyk so empty... sianz.. nthing to do now... dunno wat to download.. sianz!! i go sms her le lahz... cYa!!

2004-09-12T05:25:00.000-07:00

Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them. Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you. What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? If love isn't a game, why are there so many players? Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. You can only go as far as you push! Actions speak louder than words. The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff. Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it. A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have. Some people make the world special by just being in it. Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us. When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there. True friendship never ends. Friends are forever. Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there. Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile. Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end. Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart. If u love something...let it go. If it comes back to you its yours.... If it doesn't then it never was. A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug until its from the one ur thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come true. LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u. To realizeThe value of a sisterAsk someoneWho doesn't have one.To realizeThe value of ten years:Ask a newlyDivorced couple.To realizeThe value of four years:Ask a graduate.To realizeThe value of one year:Ask a student whoHas failed a final exam.To realizeThe value of nine months:Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born.To realize The value of one month:Ask a motherwho has given birth toA premature baby.To realizeThe value of one week:Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.To realizeThe value of one hour:Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet.To realizeThe value of one minute:Ask a personWho has missed the train, bus or plane.To realizeThe value of one-second:Ask a personWho has survived an accident...To realizeT! he value of one millisecond:Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the OlympicsTime waits for no one. Treasure every moment you have.You will treasure it even more whenyou can share it with someone special.To realize the value of a friend:Lose one.Peace love and prosperity to all

2004-09-12T00:10:00.000-07:00

yo... watching scream 3 jux now... watch till v hungry and tired... dun wanna watch de... cos she watching ma then nthing to do oso... then i oso watch lohz... in some sort of "pei " her lohz... jux ate maggie mee then came into the room le... damn sianz... she say she will call mi lata... so i tink i update my blog be4 she call mi ba... miss her lohz... v long nv c her le... one week leh... nicole i miss u lyk crazy... jux now bout at ten i tried to make her name wif small small de nic trying to form a big nicole... but i failed.. wanna show her sometink to make her happy happy ma... but i stupid and useless then failed... haiz... stupid mi... i tink i stop here le lahz... i go wait for her to call mi le... nitex guys... swt dreamx...MuAckS!!!

2004-09-11T16:35:00.000-07:00

wah! finally... got my home back from natalie's hse? my cpu spend a nite at her hse lohz... sometink happen to mine com then her dad is a pro lohz... now how to repair com de... and i jux found out that nigel is natalie's brother... sort of *surprice* when he came out of the room... yesterday i went to funky ball.. yongz they all say wanna help mi celebrate my bdae earlier... afew ppl went onli... plus mi got 7 guys... sianz.. no gals... next sun coming soon le.. hoping to spend it wisely wif someone... then on the mrt, mi and jelly spotted a chio bu lehz... somemore wore a tube.. then same station get down... wee u wee! after funky ball, as usual we went for supper.. i ate nasi brani... nice lehz... then we headed home le.. they wanna treat mi but i dun wan... sianz.. reach home at round 1+... wanna on my com... but dun haf... i forget it was at natalie hse... sianz lohz... 1st time i nv online lehz... then lying on the bed to lyk waiting for sms... sms and tok to her on th fone till lyk 2 to 3 am.. then fall aslp.. early in the morning i receive a sms... kinda surprize.. then went back to slp... receive a call from natalie and my com is done... and after installing all my stuff... i am online again!! hahas.. v slpy lehz... mayb update at nite ba...

2004-09-08T09:33:00.000-07:00

came home from green... wat can i do at green?? play pool and?? went there to lyk breathe in some "fresh air" oso.. yesterday went le today oso go... today morning went to school for a maths lesson... went meet andy to go school together... my breakfast was lyk a lolipod? after climbing over the fences and ran arcoss the road... my lolipod flew* and broke into 2.. got 1 more lolipod de.. wanna save for her then dun wanna eat... finally reach school, first tink was to go needle room lohz... for wat?? u say lehz... hu can i find... wah!! so mani ppl in side... all miss lini de students... act as if i nv c her... nvm... ba song ask mi play volleyball so i ran away lesson to play lohz.. anyway i am late le.. nvm... after the nice game, went to find her then go canteen sit till 3 30 pm lohz... there she comes... pei her go home? alight two stops before... did smtink but cant!! i tink we are very different lyk last time le.. floated partly le... not that gd and close le... reach home le chatted wif her on the fone... everytink was going fine... then i go green le... came home then she showed mi attitude le... dunno wat i did again.. i reali hope u dun give mi attitude le lohz... can we lyk go back lyk we are ?? nvm... i am lyk having doubts that she dun wan mi le lohz... maybe its true?? wrote her a testi for sometime le... she dun even wanna write back... all u noe is to say wait... write for all guys but not mi... i was wondering where do i stand in ur heart lohz... FINE!! treat mi wif watever u wan... i cant force u lohz... i tink i need to cool down!! toking bout that fren of mine!! oie!! slp slp slp... nv call le arhz... everytink slp de... nvm... u pig!! nite lohz... swt dream ppl! bad day for mi !!

2004-09-07T04:01:00.000-07:00

for u de!!

i love u

Baby i love you (i love you) and I'll never let you go(let you go),
But if I have to, boi I think that you should know(think that u should know),
All the love we made (love we made)can never be erased(erased)
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby i love you (i love you) and I'll never let you go(let you go),
But if I have to, boi I think that you should know(you should know),
the love we made (love we made)can never be erased(erased)
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you,
yes I do(yes I do)
I'll be with you
as long as you want me to
until(until)the end (the end) of time (of time)
From the day I met you
I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you
and I wanna have your kids(have ur kids)
Things could never compare to the feeling of your kisses,
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You make me thank god that I live my life everyday
There's never been a doubt
in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side
But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
Enjoyed everyday that I spent with you
and I will miss you cuz I'm happy that I had you at all
Baby i love you (i love you) and I'll never let you go(let you go),
But if I have to, boi I think that you should know(think that u should know),
All the love we made (love we made)can never be erased(erased)
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby i love you (i love you) and I'll never let you go(let you go),
But if I have to, boi I think that you should know(you should know),
the love we made (love we made)can never be erased(erased)
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you,
yes I do
I'll be with you
as long as you want me to
until (until)the end (the end) of time (of time)

2004-09-06T19:15:00.000-07:00

it is since a long time i had update my blog le... mani tinks happened recently... sometime i had gd days wif her but sometimes tinks may be very worst... quarrels keep starting and everytime is because of the same tink... i am reali very sorry... as i promised u to haf more trust.... i decided to change!! mock exam start on friday and i haf not been going... today oso got A maths paper... didn't go... for the pass one week, i have not been eating much.. sometime onli eat a few spoon for dinner 0nli.. thats y recently not feeling very well and wasn't in the mood... on 4th of september was my happiest days for the past few day or even weeks lohz... it was a saturday... woke up onli i sms her as usual... she was hafing flag day lohz...she went to hougang interchange to do her flag day... i was so happy to see her lehz, ppl wearing pink clip....she was so beautiful... then i went to fair price to buy some sweet for.. help her donate some money then she finished her work then she went back to sch... then she came cp for lunch... showed mi sometink which make made mi very happy... reali brighten up my whole day... after that went to funky ball and keep winning.. =] sun damn sianz.. slp and slp... then today... woke up with a bad headache lohz.. then met lun they all go plaza play pool... sway lohz... kanna chase out.... cos my bdae haf not pass then few more days onli lohz... [HINT] .. oso dun let... nvm... then we went mall and we headed to kovan to play lan.. wasn;t feeling well ma, then after 10 min i ran into the toilet to vomit... after that stopped playing le then wanna go home wif ryan... go out le still vomit, somemore in the heavy rain lohz... then went up the bloody 119 so damn cold lohz... shiver lyk siao... then i drop at plaza again, went to find her... c her onli then go... cos cant send her home... nvm.. wat a day i haf got lohz.. headed home.. step in the door onli quarrel wif my dad... morning started to nagged at mi le... and i diam diam onli... then cant ren le so quarrel as i was not in the mood ma... i nearly left the hse but i scared no place to go... so went in my room... cooled down and i tok to her on the fone... she jux put down not very long onli... i am sorry nicows.. should not putt blames on you... sorry... end here le lahz... update again... go mum mum le lohz...

2004-07-28T20:23:00.000-07:00

jux woke up from a nap... as normal i met her to school ,gave her a lollipod on the bus... when we reach school, we had a tok and went for assembly... cal v funny de... wait for luoer but luoer came to sch le... lesson was lyk v boring... netto today siao de... 10 of us hu everytime nv do homework de kanna scold and went late for recess... wah... for recess... i ate the japan food de store... ate $2 de food still v hungry... then but lemon chicken rice and eat... wah... so song... 1st time in sch eat too much... "ringgggggggg" bell rang then here comes pauline and may tan... asking us to go class le... then went class lohz... it was lit lesson... in 4 c ma... can c her seat clearly... but then she not in class... her lesson for today all not in class de... so nv had a chance to *bio* her.... haha... after lit was DNT... eeeeeeee.... most SUx de lesson le... 2 hours i did nthing and finally reach 2 le... lesson was till 5 but i left cos nthinng to do oso... damn u lahz choy.... everytime kp us, somemore send letter to 14 dnt student when we onli got 17 student... letter again... "TIU U" lahz... mi andy and shinfatt went to cp... she and her frens oso going ma... then we follow her too lahz.. first bus came and too mani ppl le... second bus came... boarded the bus and we saw zelia... no wonder someone so happy lahz... haha... then reach cp le... fatt went 1st... she and her frens at hallmarks buying present for their fren... mi and andy sort of wait outside lohz... one couple reach le... lol... cal... calvin and luoer... they came le... andy took pic of them standing together... haha... after that we all went food court to eat lunch...i ate chicken cutlet rice... chicken again... recess i ate two time chicken... now eat chicken too... sort of sick le... got a call from MADM WOOO... no wonder the number so familiar de.. haha... ask mi go her test... bullshit lahz... u wait i go lohz.. maybe fri or sat lahz... after that cal wanted to do sometink de... but luoer busy... she gtg... cal arhz... did u touch zhichen today?? he suay de lehz... tml lahz... lol... u can de... after lunch i pei her home le... took 80 to hougang inter... nice trip...=]... then we reach le we change to 74... she ask mi sometink... LOL... she was reali cute lohz... planned to saw off to her de... she say saw le ask mi throw away.... haha... on the way... hweeteen came up the bus... haha... she saw everytink.. haha... but nthing for her to c anyway... then she sms mi... haha.... nice one lahz... hweeteen i lyk that oso can c u... we got down a stop be4 and walk till they bus stop and i go home le... wah sian... jux remembered tml got A maths test sia... still got tuition homework nv do... wish mi luck ba.... oso sure fail de... again got DNT lesson again... haiz... boring... stop here le lohz... update again...

2004-07-27T22:44:00.000-07:00

wow... today is a great great day for mi.... met her to sch in the morning... but she sms mi that she will late, ask mi go 1st... but i walk there and waited for her... haha... i reach at 7am, she reach at 7.15?? wait awhile onli... here she comes.... saw her walking toward the bus stop... we tried to take a cab in order not to be late... but all cab got ppl de....then we took bus... 8O... headed for compass point... in the bus we chatted lohz... reach cp le then we took 83 to school... half way on the bus shuhui got up... then we reach sch at 8am... then we walk to the side and nv get caught... 1st time i went to school wif her having a long trip sia... 1st lesson was a english test le... sianz... i oso dunno got test... after tat... mrs chew nv come.. free lesson... keep going out of class to *look* at her sia... ya... after tat is the most sian de lesson le... MRS lee.... everytink oso not happy de... dunno wat she tinking... everytime let us go laate for recess de... after assembly.... school ended... went to her class.... she went off first... then i tell debbie happy birthday then go canteen drink water as to wait for her as she got dance... waited till 5... when to 4 c de class... wif calvin... we chatted.... he was v glad sia... ppl so happy... haha... i keep drawing her name on paper lohz... finally 5 le... i pei her home lohz... on the bus 74... guess hu i saw??? JAY CHOU AND HIS stead lehz... siao siao.... they so close sia... reach her there le... we sit down to tok... so happy sia.... i held her **** for a moment... chatted till 650 and i walk her home le.... reaching her home there le... gave her a ***.... and i went le... sort of missed the moment... i reali treasured the time i spend wif her... went to the bus stop and i took 74 home... reach home at around 7++... bathe le... watch tv... then online till now le..... tired le.... chat wif her till she offline then i go slp le... NITE... calvin!!!! btw all the best!! *gurl*.... here to tell u i reali miss ya............................................

2004-07-26T23:50:00.000-07:00

hi.... came home le... pei zhichen send telicia home... wee u wee.... song bo... hahahaha... telicia arhz... give him chances lahz... haha... he not bad de.... ya... the stupid gal stay so far then need to walk and walk... then now then reach home... all her fault... ya... before that... after school... went for mrs lee lesson... then rush to her class to pei her home... so song... v glad... but tinking the trip is lyk v short... then send her le wait at her estate from 3+ to 5 then go home le.... v tired... some more drizzling.... morning came to sch wif her too... rush to srjc outside... lucky nv miss the bus... time wif her is lyk so happy... recently quite gd wif her... dunring concert... i went both.... during friday... sometink happen and i got v jealous... and i dunno wat to do.... zl ask i follow her then i follow le... on the bus, he tell mi alot tinks.... then noe that she is important to mi... after we got down the bus... i tok to her and tell her how i feel... then when she wanna go le... i gave her a ***... wow... when giving her a *** i tell her that i EVOL her... then she go home le... suddenly turn happy le... then went for supper and went home... saturday... went to c her again... she dance v v v nice lohz... i lyk it v much... haha.... so pretty... ya... then curve her hand on my hand... then showed her... after the concert... her papa send her home.... then cant send her le lohz.... i was lyk standing outside de gate and i c mani couple... hoping i can c her home sia... haiz... nvm... i MISS u... jux told her on the fone... reali the miss her.... tinki stop here le... cya tml... so longed to c u at the bus stop in the morning sia... nite ppl... swt dreamzzzzzzzzzz....

2004-07-17T00:20:00.000-07:00

yoz... new blog.. haha... jux came back from hougang green... before that we went queensway to walk... i bought a black t shirt... after that... at green... mi, shinfatt, mar,chen... we were playing and 3 guy wanna play wif us... i was the 1st to play... haha... sian... win the 3 guys hu i dunno... no need pay sia... morning i went to school... onli wanna c her.. once i reach sch... i went to search for her lohz... but nv c... then i went to hall to wait for her to come... finally.... after some time... its her time to perform le... i saw her dance... veri nice lohz.... wah... beauti sia... then after that went to kovan cos i c them going kovan ma... so i oso go lohz... haha... starting i was going to pei luoer go back sch de... then i tink of someone hu i wanna c and i wanted to send her home... haha... so happy lohz.. i was happy till now... thanks for letting mi send u home.. haha... time wif her was so happy lohz... get to c her... haha... so happy!!! she is reali pretty lohz... then we get down the bus le... saw her ex... v shuai lohz... haiz... she tok to him.. i dunno wat to do and i tot of going le... lucky she call mi... and i send her home... and i told her sometink... haha.. BUT yesterday was a very sian day... got into trouble again... i was in class... mis ong cheng cheng pass by my class... she saw mi taking sometink and ask mi to come out..erm... she saw my earstud and ask mi to pass her my fone... i refused... and she bring mi to lim linlin... f her... she took my fone and i follow her to her class... i was very pissed that my fone was taken so i wnet into her class to snatch it back... she put my shirt and i smach her hand off.. she ask mr guei to catch mi down to c vp... then my parents were called down... f lohz... haiz.. got 9 hours of dentention and had to stay back after school everyday... no way!!! not going.... it was a unlucky day lohz... sianz... gtg le... nite ppl... swt dreamzzzz..